Don't Turn Out
Pisces (Feb 18 - Mar 19): Feelings of restlessness are powerful, but remember that you only recently committed to making big changes. Give them time to take effect. ( Today's S.F. Chronicle)
It seems to ratchet up one small tick at a time, but today was better than yesterday (which was better than the day before) and I walked down to buy a paper and have breakfast at a place I normally avoid located at the bottom of my street. Well, bottom plus a block. I don't usually go to this place because it's hole in the wall depressing, although I found an Asian American waitress there this morning who made my heart go pitty pat. Too young, of course, but still, it made for better eggs over easy.
Reminds me of an earlier life. Up, take a shower, breakfast between ten and eleven, pick up a rental movie, check out a local mail box rental place (one of those things I've been putting off), walk back home with a tuna fish sandwich from the local 7 - 11 look alike for lunch. This is a civilized way to spend a Monday morning.
"Big changes". I guess all changes are "big changes" in some way. I have an idea what photographs I might shoot this winter, although my history is to talk without the walk. I am going to get out more, see friends I haven't seen in a long time. Maybe buy a car if I have a job in January so I can "get around", although I suspect changes that boil down to just spending money. You get older, you get suspicious. Marketing people avoid us for good reason. Still, it would be nice to have a reliable set of wheels with portrait lights in the trunk.
Is this the result of my brush with prostate reality? Some portrait lights? A car? I think shooting the portraits would qualify, I get a kind of deep down contact high when I think about it, and I think buying the lights would make a nice Christmas present. The car? I don't know. A man with lights might need a new camera. I am occasionally asked by friends to shoot their photographs - husband-wife, boyfriend-girlfriend in a romantic setting - and I'm going to get more aggressive in following through. Better than weddings. No emotional investment. No need to sue or maim the photographer if they don't turn out.