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SF Chinese New Year Parade
February 29th, 2000

Millennium February 29th
I finally did something about getting my webcam back on line. No, it's not back yet, but it should be by tomorrow afternoon. What was wrong with my high end (yes it was a good deal, but a good deal in the sense that the ridiculous was cut in half to the marginally ludicrous) web camera? Well, I don't know, but I discovered (finally) that it has a reset button. It resets everything, of course. It isn't quite like resetting a computer. Any of you know how to use arp to write an IP address to a mac address on a device connected to an Ethernet segment? Well, some of you do, but most of you are sane and ignore this stuff. It took me two weeks to get off my butt and figure out my camera has a reset button (hidden and all that, but still...). My high tech employers don't need to know about this.
Weasel out of my promise to have it on line tomorrow (end of day) red color fine print: I've recently had problems ftp'ing files back and forth between the office and my ISP's web server. It is conceivable the script I use on the camera to ftp the images to my web site may now have problems as well. Time to figure out why. Time to make the images reload at shorter intervals so everyone can watch real time bumper to bumper Broadway traffic.
Twenty first day of rain, this month.

I'm getting closer to the age of 57. That's getting closer to 60. That, my friends, is old. SF Chinese New Year Parade Older than my pitiful imagination is ready to encompass, older than I have ever really considered contemplating from the "inside", as it were. Retirement? The concept becomes more real when 60 looms, I can tell you. (Insert long screed on how 60 is but the beginning of new chapters, new vistas, new hippity hop non stop fun under the sun.) Fuck it. Sixty is very close to that other side where no one takes you seriously anymore not that anyone every took me all that seriously in the first place. White hair, no hair, an inability to remember the names of your cousins. Or your sisters. Or if you have any sisters. Or brothers. I have a sister, no brothers and some cousins, all of whom I could name after my morning bath and just before lunch. I don't remember names after lunch. It's in the contract. No names after lunch. Now the names of their kids. I could do that, but on a weekend, rested, at home with the address book. I can usually remember my own name. That's good. That's a good sign, a good indicator that things are going well. Until you don't and you hear the truck pull up.

Well, this has drifted now, hasn't it? I suppose the one thing that worries me is what exactly am I going to do with myself for the next decade or two? The attempts and adventures that fascinated me as a youngster don't fascinate me the way they once did when finally given the chance to meet them up close. I bitch about not listening to music the way I once listened to music anymore, although I have the Australian video production of La Boheme playing in the background. Still, even then, that says it: There was a time when music wasn't altogether unlike a good fuck. Erotic, neurotic, who knows? The listening got me off. How many things in your life have you found to make you feel like that? Music for me was one. Writing might have approached, given the chance. I divorced both.

Don't see myself starting any new careers of interest any time soon, although you never know. As a youngster I checked out my share, how others made their livings, made their lives. Everybody does that, don't they? Checks out the world around them when they're young? Walks a step or two on the wild side? Eats pizza for breakfast? Drinks beer in church? Drives down the strip to the Dairy Queen to laugh with the ladies? In Pleasantville. In Beirut.

Mimi and Rodolpho are singing their duet now at the gate. What must it have been for Puccini to write that? I'm glad to have heard that early in life. Maybe it brings back memories etched in that time. Meeting and parting, meeting and parting. That's what La Boheme is about. Not a lot of family time for Mimi and Rodolpho, raising kids and putting together their 401k for an afterlife on the links. Mimi didn't make it to 60, never touched 30, so what am I complaining about? Nothing really, this Tuesday of a once only on a Millenium February 29th.

The photographs were taken at the Chinese New Year Parade in San Francisco last Saturday.