May 27th, 1999

Endangered Species List
We had our Coho Salmon annual lunch today in Jack London Square. Every year for a period of three weeks they allow the commercial fishing of Coho Coho salmon Salmon and for two or three weeks you can find it if you look hard enough on the menus of some restaurants. We go to Jack's. I have a friend at work who is serious about cooking to the point she has a "fish person" in Seattle she can call to find out exactly when those three weeks will begin. I do not have a "fish person" in Seattle or anywhere else, but I understand the concept: Every now and then you need to go to someplace you can't afford and eat an almost endangered species piece by small piece, teary eyes focused on your plate, drifting, lost in time, lost in space..., and salmon.

And then you wake up and go back to work.

One of the members of our group left the company some time back, but came over from San Francisco to join us for lunch. I thought, well, he looks thinner than I last remembered him and he was already thin back then. We got to talking and he mentioned he had trouble sleeping at night and that he'd recently taken a "sleep test" and been diagnosed with sleep apnea and I realized that was it, he didn't look thinner, but tired, dog tired. We talked about the options he had, they were recommending the air pump and mask (CPAP) for now and the palate and back of tongue operations to cure it. He'd heard about my "move the jaw" adventure and we compared notes.

I don't think he reads this, but if he does, go for the palate and the tongue trim, if you need them, but be sure there's no other choice if they start talking about moving your jaw. The palate and the tongue, well, you take all those narcotics they give you and put your feet up: Sore throat, liquid food for a week and then it's back to work. And you feel better and you're smarter and you don't fall off your chair fast asleep in business meetings with your boss. The way I did. Unless you're looking for new employment, of course.

I'd forgotten to bring any pain pills with me to the office this morning, so I hadn't taken any since yesterday afternoon and was feeling a little down with an aching mouth that even the Coho had some difficulty competing with. The Coho won, but my general mood was low and I was picking up on the fact that everybody I knew at the office had left for other jobs and this business of life has its lonely aspects. I should have been ordering another glass of wine and thinking of ways to skip going back to work. I was sitting next to my manager, a woman with business acumen, and I'm sure she could have given me better advice than I seemed to be giving myself.

This has stumbled from Coho salmon to lack of sleep and dribbled away whining about who knows what. I don't think I'm going to win any awards with this kind of shit.

Speaking of awards, Viv mentioned she'd been working on an awards project for diarist.net and some of the other journalers have commented on it in their entries. This has been a pretty good last couple of months for me too. I was written up by Damiana in the Launch section of diarist.net, I was added to the favorite links pages of five journals I greatly respect and I was invited to join Archipelago at a time when I wasn't really quite certain anyone other than those five journalers and Rien Post had ever gotten a chuckle out of any of this. That's a lot more than I had any right to expect.


 
The banner photograph was taken somewhere or other in 1997, the Coho salmon was lifted from another site and the funny looking sticks used to be suspended over my patio before they tore them down.

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